It's like I've just realized three things about myself that I always knew on some level.

1. I'm totally messed up. 2. I don't think teaching will truly make me happy. 3. I am scared about never being happy.

It's not like I expect to wake up one day and everything will be perfect. I know I have to work for it all.
But what I don't understand is why I don't start. It's like I know the future will happen so I'm just.....alright.

I'm going to stop here because I will go off on a zillion and attempt to explain my thoughts on life even
Though I'm sure every other person has the exact same doubts about themselves.

It's weird how it's often the sound of the sound that catches your attention first,
But it eventually becomes the lyrics that make a mark on your soul if it's good enough because you can relate.

Songs draw emotion. So you listen to a less meaningful song that's full of good sounds. You're raw and need to feel....

You listen to something that you connect with on a different type of level. Sad thing is that I can always keep going this way...it never stops.