I've had one thing on my mind for two weeks and I can't get it out of my head.
It's a constant in the back of my brain, motivating me to do certain things, to say certain things, to act certain ways.
And I'm enjoying it. I have always been the kind of person that once an idea gets in my head, I usually follow it through at all costs.
Now I have this new project in motion. And I'm excited about it yet at the same time scared.
It will open doors but now all I can do to contain my excitement is get involved in every other possible situation.
But I'm afraid that I will say something too soon and lose it all.
Go out and do it. Experience it, live it, abide by it.
Kinnetic is and will always be the force that drives every carnal instinct that lives within me. I cannot escape it's power.
I feel its presence at uni, it finds me alone at night, I let it absorb me when I'm with you. It cannot be stopped. You cannot control it.
The longer you try, the more forceful it will be when it gets out. It is a soul shaking, mind blowing, purely lustful relationship.
Why am I thinking about it? Why can't I live it? It's like I'm on fire but standing on a frozen lake.
If God had wanted me to be on ice, he would have made me a vodka martini instead of making me this way. It doesn't make sense to me.
Why have I surrounded myself with people who don't think the same way as I do?
I want it so badly but it's like I'm too afraid of the judgement. I need to be invisible. This is not bad, I will not feel like I have a dark secret.
It's a constant in the back of my brain, motivating me to do certain things, to say certain things, to act certain ways.
And I'm enjoying it. I have always been the kind of person that once an idea gets in my head, I usually follow it through at all costs.
Now I have this new project in motion. And I'm excited about it yet at the same time scared.
It will open doors but now all I can do to contain my excitement is get involved in every other possible situation.
But I'm afraid that I will say something too soon and lose it all.
Go out and do it. Experience it, live it, abide by it.
Kinnetic is and will always be the force that drives every carnal instinct that lives within me. I cannot escape it's power.
I feel its presence at uni, it finds me alone at night, I let it absorb me when I'm with you. It cannot be stopped. You cannot control it.
The longer you try, the more forceful it will be when it gets out. It is a soul shaking, mind blowing, purely lustful relationship.
Why am I thinking about it? Why can't I live it? It's like I'm on fire but standing on a frozen lake.
If God had wanted me to be on ice, he would have made me a vodka martini instead of making me this way. It doesn't make sense to me.
Why have I surrounded myself with people who don't think the same way as I do?
I want it so badly but it's like I'm too afraid of the judgement. I need to be invisible. This is not bad, I will not feel like I have a dark secret.